Michael Jackson passed away. I really love him. When I liked him, I was in high school. He was already a super star. But I hadn’t listened to his songs. After seeing a TV program about a episode when he came to Japan I started to get interested in him. I had thought he was so gentle and thoughtful when I heard a boy was kidnapped and killed by someone and Michael said “ I wanna give him this concert as my sympathy. “ in his concert in Japan. He spoke gently like whispering and his stage was fabulous I thought when I saw his concert on a video over and over. He had various rumors. He treated cynically and laughed the rumors and made a video clip of his song named “ leave me alone “ The video clip is animation and very funny. For instance he introduced a rumor that he had bones of elephant man and palace of Elizabeth Taylor in the video clip. He was a superstar. That’s why many people criticized him and he was got into some incidences . Media treated him as a super star but also sometimes a strange person. A person in a book that I read few days ago said “ People have mouth to say the worst thing that other people don’t want someone to say to other people. “ in the book. Michael who loves children and who was children ever after didn’t want people to say the most would be abusing children. I hadn’t seen him and even gone to his concert. But every time the media reported bad rumors about him, I was worried about him because he had a sensitive heart. We can’t listen to his new songs also he can’t perform singing also dancing in his concert anymore. I’m really sad as a fan. But anybody couldn’t hurt him and he will be happy he went to the heaven where there are a lot of fun things. I hope he becomes happy in the heaven. By the way this picture is changing leaves and a bubble. His soul must fly in the comfortable sky now.
Last Friday I had my hair cut after two months. Last time I said “ I wanna grow my hair. So I want a little shorter. “ at the salon. But this time I asked a hair artist to have my hair chopped off above my shoulders. After having my hair cut she gathered up my cut hair with the dustpan. They were piled up like a whole head or two heads. I weigh myself on the scales after getting home, I lost 1 kilo. Is this because I had my hair cut? It is said “ Girls have their hair cut when they break up with their boy friends.” In my case it’s kind of true. I used to have my hair cut when someone dumped me or when I wanted to change my feelings. When I had chopped my hair off, I felt like being reborn also I wanted to be born again. Women can change clothes, make-ups and nail polishes when we want to change our feelings. It’s fun we have many switches to change our feelings. It’s easy to feel down in the rainy season but it feels very good at the garden after raining. If I think I’m gonna feel down under the thick clouds, I’ll paint my nails orange and enjoy spending time in the rainy season. By the way I took this picture in daitoku-temple. Momiji-trees change their leaves red or yellow and fall their leaves. And then they are reborn. I must be reborn after falling my hairs!
There are lots of thing that you don’t know how painful until you experience them in life. It’s like this picture. The sunset in the window is different from the real sunset. The things that you imagine are tottally different from the things that you experince. When you experience them even once, you realize how painful they are. I tried not to think of it and feel something and I pretended not to feel anything. My heart and instinct are honesty more than my brain. That’s why my tears are flowing from my eyes to cheeks without knowing. There is a lyric “ The more you cry, the stronger you get.” in a Japanese song. If it’s true, I’ll get strong tomorrow more than today.