a book that I just finished reading

　

The book that I just finished reading was very interesting and entertaining historically also religiously.
The book is entitled “ life of Jesus Christ” written by Shusaku Endo.
I had known the book but I hadn't read it.
A middle aged man who is in the same generation as my mother let me borrow it.
The book turned blown color and printed words look old. But it seemed like he valued it.
What was interesting is that this story was written from the side of subdued Judea.
I had read the story from the side of conquering Roma but I hadn't read it from the side of Judea. I had known only brightness of Roma. So I had thought Roma was more than welcome by subdued countries.
But it was not exactly. I knew it for the first time.
In addition I realized something when I was reading.
It's that Jesus Christ wanted to suffer from people's pain and misery instead of them.
Even though he always tried to take on their pain holding patients’ and physically challenged people’s hands, people just wanted him only to do miracles.
They wanted him to soothe their diseases, to be able to see everything and to be able to walk.
Even if he couldn’t do miracles and people couldn’t see the sign from him, they were disappointed and started to hate him.
At the end even Apostles were disappointed at him and he died on the cross.
I realized I'm the same as the people!
When I have tough time, I pray to God to get rid of the hardness.
Then if he didn't get rid of them, I think God isn't here and I hate God.
Oh, am I really selfish, or what!
I wanna believe in something as Jesus Christ said “ People who believe in it without seeing
are happy. “