there is a nice view after the tunnel

When I have time for myself, I tidy up my rooms and study. So I can’t make time for blogging these days. For 2 months I had been worrying about going back to work sometime. But now there is a thing that I want to do and I spend fun time and save positive energy every day. Then there were many incredible synchronicities and timings. So I couldn’t be better. My maternity leave is ending in 3 months. When I imagine the moment when I go back to work, there are some worries. But it must be good. Actually there is a pleasure thing next year, too. Every life goes to happiness. Yeah, it’s true! I took this picture in Kyoto 3 years ago.

carm and comfortable in the afternoon on Saturday

in the Saturday afternoon
it's raining out
jazz is playing on the CD player
I cut carrots and burdocks into thin strips

hearing jazz from the living room
and the sound of cutting from the kicthen
and zizzing sound of my husband and babyson from the Japanese style room

it's carm and comfortable in the afternoon on Saturday

by the way I took this picture in the rainy day in Kyoto this time last year.

happy lunch time with new friends

Today I had lunch with two friends of mine at a funcy Italian restaurant.
I met them at the English play group.
The restaurant is funcy and gets a lot of sunshine also every dish tasted really good.
We were able to be at the basement of it by ourselves.
Kids and mothers were relaxed like being at somebody’s house.
Both of them used to live in foreign countries and work using Enlgish.
At first I was gonna using English but after all we enjoyed talking in Japanese all the time.
They said “ I had a image you always talk in Enlgish. When you say something
in Japanese to your kid, I think you get to speak Japanese.And it’s kind of strange
to speak Japanese. “ to me.
I don’t know why but I was kind of pleased or something like that.
We live in Japan but we used to talk in Enlgish most of time.
So it was our first time to enjoy talking in Japanese.
We spent four hours together but time flied.
Every experience is different from the image when you experience.
Especially being mother is tottally different from my image for me.
I think my baby son is cute much more than I had imagined and his life is much more
important than my life. Plus I hadn’t imagined I love him that much and my feelings
and the way I think changed.
Now I think that's what friends who have kids are for.
I wanna cherish such a happy time with my baby son and new friends.
By the way I took this picture in Kyoto this time last year.

the happiest time*

After my baby son sleeping at night it’s time for myself.
Recently I do housework even though I can use time for myself.
Last night I tidied up the walk-in-closet and threw away some stuff.
When I was pregnant I thew away many things and clothes but we need the space
for my baby son.
It’s difficult to do it and I’ve been thinking about the way I make the space.
Then I got a book for making the simple and clean and organized room on impulse.
It says you keep the things that you get exicited and throw away other things.
I decided to throw away a box of clothes from the way.
I’m sure there are many things that I should throw away.
So, tonight I cleaned the blind spots of the bathroom.
I hardly clean the spots. So it was dirty…..
Putting back the covers on it, you can’t realize where it gets clean.
But I felt really nice even if I can see it outside.
And I just fried croquette that I’m gonna bring it to my mother tomorrow.
Potato that I cooked coroquette was potato that my father-in-law sent us.
He lives in the south of Japan and he often sents vegetables us after the Great East
Japan Earthquake.
I appreciate it always coz I can get safe vegetables.
And now I’m thinking what I cook for my baby son tomorrow.
I gotta do quickly! Now it’s over at midnight.
I took this picture just before.
I like him kicking the cover. Coz he is boy!!
The happiest time when I slip into the warm inside beside him!

planning baby foods for my baby son like plannning the party

　　

I’ll cook something delish for my baby son and I want him to eat much more.
So I’m plannning for it and writing down the stock of baby foods and things that I’m doing
tomorrow.
It’s like preparing for the party.
I gotta enjoy it not to push myself not to get out of breath.

I'm scared much cesium falling down but also I spent happy time.

Last Wednesday I took part in a playgroup for a caregiver and children in English that
Canadian friend called Amy asked me before.
We meet once a week and play and sing with children.
We use English only. But there is no English teacher. So it’s different from learning English
at school.
But it’s good not to forget English phrase. And also it was lucky to join there because
I made friends with mothers.
By the way these days I hadn’t been caring radio active materials in the air.
Last Wendesday one of mothers said “ Takeda-prof said “Much cesium is falling now. “ “
to me.
I tottally didn’t know that! And I found out much cesium has fallen since the new year.
I started to be scared since I found out it.
So I put a mask for kids on my babyson that it might not work and I wear a mask.
Then we went shopping to the grocery store.
I hung dry my laundry in.
Today I thought I didn’t need to go out and we were at home all day.
I lied on my stomach with my baby son and handed up like a plane together.
When our eyes met, he moved his face to me and pressed his forefead to me.
Way too cute!!!
I’m head over heels for him already!
Then we took a bath around at 6 and.he fell asleep after breastfeeding.
Falling asleep after taking a bath is nice, you know.
He waked up in 30 minutes and ate baby food. Then we lied on the floor.
I put a picture book at my babyson’s side and I was writing a diary about him.
The he rolled over and turned a page himself.
I know it but he really liks picture books.
I like reading books. So I’m more than willing he likes picture books!
I spent happy time today as ever.

everyday I can laugh at something!

　

When you raise your baby, you can discover new things and you’re impressed every day.
For instance when I spoonfed my baby son the day before yesterday, I heard the ticking
of something from his mouth.
So I put my finger in his mouth, I found some teeth there!
I was impressed! And I found out why he crys a lot in the middle of the night!
And yesterday he suddenly started to make the sound “Bryu ryuryuu”.
And then he started to put the baby food out with the sound today.
I laughed automatically!
He removes his socks right away. But also he removed the leg-warmers when I realized!
When he pooped, I wiped his bottom and went to wash my hands to the bathroom.
Getting back there, he rolled over twice and put my camera in his mouth!
There are a lot of funny things every day!
It’s fun to think of it and I’m looking forward to seeing him and laughing tomorrow again.

Happy time has started*

Time flied and the new-year-holiday was over.
But you know what, I’m a full-time-house wife now. So it doesn’t matter it’s a holiday or not.
But I’m kind of excited when the holiday comes.
Next year I’m gonna come back to work. So this holiday was the last new-year-holiday
that I’m not anxious when the holiday is almost over.
By the way I’ve been wondering it’s the best choice to come back to work or not.
But everytime I think it’s the best choice from some reasons.
I can be a full time house wife anytime.
If I thought I couldn’t do it or got exhausted, I could quit my job.
After coming back to work I don’t wanna push myself and I wanna take it easy.
Working is not suger coated.
I have to find the problems and go the distance.to change the way people work.
I might say it’s tough about it next year.
But I don’t have to think something next year now.
I made 4 Japanese special dishes called Osechi for the new year.
I cut corners and I didn’t make one dish even thought I made it last year.
I enjoyed playing our annual card games with my family.
And it was wonderful time to spend time with my nephew and my baby son in the new year.
Happy time has started!

there were many happy things in 2011.

　

I was busy at the end of the year also in the new year.
Everyday time flies when I spend time with my baby son.
But of course I spend happy time every day.
Last year there was the most important thing in life.
Of course it means my babyson was born last year.
Becoming mom, I was able to experience various things and every experience was a very happy experience.
Looking back, there was no bad thing and I never felt down even once.
Happy things happened one after another.
In the hospital where my baby son was born I met an Indian friend called Remya also some mothers.
In addition I saw some friends after a few year.
Talking about a friend of them, I talked with her on the phone after being a labor.
And I got some advice to give birth easily from her.
She was more than willing to see such me and I had a baby.
Plus, when I was with her at Tully’s, my baby son pooped there.
So I went to the baby room to change the diaper.
Then I met a Canadian woman called Amy. And then I met new friends through her.
I thought why he pooped now. But I talked about it with Amy and we said “ Actually it was a lucky poop! “ to each other.
And I shouldn’t forget my family’s support.
My mother and sister supports me and give some advice me as a mother and my family.
My sister’s husband is nice to me. My husband values our baby son.
Looking back again, there was a terrible bad thing.
Not to mention, it’s about the Great East Japan Earthquake.
When there was the earthquake, I walked home from work about for 7 hours.
And then I have to be worried about the radioactive materials. And it hasn’t been over yet.
I haven’t drunk tap water at home. So I have to pay much money to keep getting much mineral
water. And I don’t get vegetables that I wanna eat. I get vegetables that grows in the south of
Japan. Because I don’t need to be worried about the radioactive materials.
So I can’t eat food that I wanna eat.
There are some worries and tough things.
I’m extremely happy after having my baby son more than some worries and others.
I met new friends through my baby son also I saw old friends after having my baby son.
My happiness loops around me on the axis of him.
It doesn’t mean he can live with my support. It means I can live because he is here.
I wanna never forget to thank everything and value meeting and communicating with
People and all that jazz this year.

Mom is the best**

At the end of this month there is a exiciting farewell party of work.
They asked me there. SoI really wanted to go there and I was planning to do it.
I didn’t mean to but my baby boy doesn’t like bottlefeeding. So I can’t get someone to look after him.
If I took him there and made an appearance not to drink, I’d go to Nihonbashi of Tokyo at 6:30 at night and how I’d get home to get on the packed train with a babybuggy or holding my babyson.
Oh, it would be dangerous.
In addition the flu is going around. So it’s bad my baby son goes to the center of Tokyo because of being crowded.
I talked to my sister about it. She was finding the way I can go and said “ Why don’t you go to the station near your husband’s work and avoid the rush and go home around at 8? “
But my baby son must be tired because he usually goes to bed early.
So I didn’t have a choice.
“ I’m jealous of dad. He can get such a cute baby also go drinking with friends.”
I thought of it for a moment.
But I thought I was lucky to be mom right away.
Feeling the fetus moving, the pain during a delivery and breastfeeding is really happy things. I feel it more than others probably.
So mom is the best for me.
Sometimes it’s busy to take care of him because he starts to cry when he doesn’t find me.
But I could say “ My prince loves me very much. That’s why he starts to cry. “
Am I happy, or what ?***

Please save Fukushima's children

A friend of mine posted the website named “ Save Fukushima’s children “.
Seeing this website without thinking, a photo that a child was gotten rid of the radioactive
materials caught my eyes.
I ccouldn’t stand seeing it…..
After becoming a mother, I feel aches to watch the news that children experience hard time.
I signed it right away.
I don’t want children are grown up nowadays to spend hard time in the feature because of
our failure. I wanna do something I can do.
By the way I took this picture in Fukushima several years ago.

Happy days*

Yesterday we went to a large park in Tokyo.
I watched the park on TV before and I learned this park is a very good park.
It was much more wonderful than I imagined. So I wanna go there again bringing
some rice boals!
When my husband took pictures of me holding our baby son, an old man came closer
to us while saying “ I’m your granpa granpa! Oh, you’re cute! You like granpa, eh? “
And then we took pictures together.
When I go somewhere with my baby boy, it’s easier to communicate with people.
Everyday I really enjoy spending time and happy days*

clear nice autum afternoon

　

Last night my husband worked through the night.
I used to be scared even when I heard small sounds at night.
But now I’m perfectly OK because I have a baby son.
You might laugh about it, I can be relaxed and feel safe sleeping while touching
a part of his body.
Who protects who?
Today we visit my husband’s friend.
He asked us to come over saying “ Why don’t you come over? We’re doing BBQ with friends
now at home ! “ all of sudden.
So we went to his house at the next station from us.
His wife is pregnunt and she’s rasing a baby son in it.
Fathers went to the same school together and baby sons are the same age by coincidence.
In the clear nice autum afternoon we spent nice time.

Dear attractive women

I’m taking a break with a book from my mother’s bookshelf and coffee.
This book is entitled “ Dear attractive women “.
Today my energy is running out……
Tonight I’m in the mood to enjoy spending time for myself at night in Autum.

I'm a selfish mother but...

Around at 7 at night when I breastfed my babyson, he fell asleep.
Oh, I was gonna read picture books for him. But if he slept so early, I didn’t need to do
something for me tonight. Oh, is it OK it’s that easy? You don’t need to sleep.
Mom thought of that.
Hmm? He waked up actually!
Mom was a little bit disappointed....
Oh, I'm a selfish mother.
But he was sleepy you know. And then he fell asleep being breastfed again.
My first priority is you and I really love you!
It’s True*

Sunday Afternoon*

I decorated the room for Halloween because my friend enjoy doing various things
for Halloween.
Picture books that I borrowed at the library for my baby son were like Halloween
for coincidence.
Putting that aside, it was nice out and it was delightful on a Sunday afternoon.
And a friend of mine visited me with her husband to see my babyson.
My husband cooked Vietnamese salad roll and stirfried bitter gourd with Tofu.
And I made hamburger, pumpkin salad, Japanese soup and baked Mont Blanc.
It was a pleasant afternoon.
When I cooked, I said “ wait a minute! “ to my baby son many times.
I wanna take a long time for him tomorrow.
Oh, he is crying while sleeping often tonight.
I gotta go to bed next to him already!

Happy Friday*

My hands are getting rough because I wash my hands a lot everyday.
I put babylotion on my hands and wear plastic gloves when I do dishes before it’s worse.
So my hands still looks goodJ
Everyday it’s hard my baby son keeping waiting for me when I take a shower before
I let him take a bath.
Tonight and last night he was able to wait for me watching “ Baby Mozart”.
But he can’t seem to be bottlefed.
I sometimes gave it up and it’s OK he can’t do it I thought. But sometimes no, no!
it’s better to do it for him I thought.
Tomorrow it’s gonna be raining.
He can’t enjoy seeing the scenery outside.
I’m wondering what I should do for him tomorrow.
For starters I’ll go to bed next to my baby son to play with him a lot tomorrow
even though it’s 9:00 at night now.
night night, everyone!
By the way I ate various vegetables from South of Japan that my sister and my friend
sent me. They are vegetables that I don’t need worry! It’s very good!

comfortable time after being nervous

For the first time I took my baby son to the doctor to get vaccinated for thepneumococcus.
My heart was pounding and I was sweating a lot.
When I get a shot, I can’t see the needle inserting into my arm.
But this time I watched it because I’m mother of him.
He didn’t cry when the needle inserted into his arm. But when he was injected the medicine,
he started to cry. I was gonna cry, too.
I said “ good boy!” to him.
Leaving the hospital and started to walk home, he fell asleep.
I didn’t get a shot and of course I didn’t stand the pain of it but I had break at Tully’s.
I was relaxed with coffee at Tullys’s where has a calm vibe with jazz music.
After a while my baby son waked up.
I borrowed two picture books at the library. So I read a book entitled “ Curious Geroge “
to him there.
I used to read it when I was a child, too.
I don’t have chances to speak English these days.
So it’s good for me to read English aloud. Oh, it’s “ killing two birds with one stone.”
I watch an English educational TV program for kids with him.
Listening to English since he is a kid is good for him?
I don’t have plans to let him learn English but I want him to get used to listening to English
from TV or something!

I was lucky I was fine and I had delish dinner

　

There was a terribly strong typhoon today!
To be honest, I was lucky I’m having a matanity leave now.
I went shopping to the grocery store holding my baby boy in the morning when the rain
wasn’t storng yet.
After getting home I played him a lot and saw his face when he slept in my arms.
And then I sometimes saw the strong rain and winds outsides the window.
If I didn’t need the rain is included the radio active materials, I wanted him to feel
the rain in the rain.
He can understand words. So I explain various things to him.
For instance today I told him about typhoon. And when we saw the harvest moon
few days ago, I told him about it while seeint the beautiful moon.
I talk with the little baby. So sometimes people see me strangely. Ahahaha!
This picture is dinner that I made last night.
These days I text a friend from college each other and we ask each other about dinner
that we make at the night.
This is rolled mixed minced chicken, some vegetables and some seasoning with fried Tofu.
It was very delish! I love it!

Sometimes people pull to each other

Yesterday I texted a friend who used to work at the same company after a few year.
She was at the other division and I didn’t work with her. But I started to communicate with her since we found out that we lived close to each other and she already quit her job. She replied me and said “ What a coincidence! I’ve been thiking how Aya is doing, too.”
Oh, it’s a funny coincidence!
We have a lot of thing that we wanna talk about. So we have plans she is coming over to my house.
When I checked my email today, I got an email from a man who used to be the general manager.
It’s a coincidence! I was about to email him today.
Sometimes people pull to each other.
We might feel vibes or our senses might work.
Anyway when it happens, we’re pleased!
By the way I took this picture in Saipan last July.
When I’ve been there, I didn’t imagine I’d become a mother next year.
I’m imagining how I am next July.